True Happiness

Good afternoon all,
Yeah I know its been a min but I had to take some time out and get "me" situated. I have been depressed and not happy with myself for like the past month or so. I have been having issues at work and dealing with my mom being diagnosed with Breast Cancer. Yes, I was very shocked and asked the humiliating-selfish questions that EVERYONE asks to themselves "Why me?", "Why my family?", and "Why MY mother?". If you ever gone through something you have asked yourself one if not all these questions at one point and time in your life. After going with her to her surgeries and making sure she is comfortable, going to work, paying bills, etc., I just became down and out. I lost my focus and was getting caught up in the mess at work that was dealing with me. I would go to church looking for a Word for me and became dissatisfied because there wasn't one.

It was until recently that I heard Fred Hammond's new song "They That Wait" is when I got a new awakening. I began talking to someone at work about my problems especially in the work place and my co-worker began telling me how the same very people ridiculed me and talked about me behind my back were the same ones that did it to her. I couldn't believe it! I was in disbelief. Then I invited her to bible study and if as if God was all up in her and I's conversation LOL! Bible study talked about trials and temptations and the difference between the two. I just couldn't believe it. Then as I was going to work I began to noticed the beauty in God everywhere. All the mess that's going on with the government and what they are trying to do to us, everything that I have been seeing that being completed in the Book of Revelation, so many people coming to God cause they have nowhere else to go, it was as if God was saying "be happy through out, its going to be ok." God knows and everything that was putting fear in me and making me depressed and weary and question things came through this one revelation (epiphany or however you want to call it).

I have to always remember as a child of God I am protected. As long as the Holy Spirit lives inside of me I am protected. Whatever happens to me whether its through health or whatever the cause maybe I am protected. I am so happy and I can feel it in my soul!!! In whatever you are going through, whatever mistakes you may have made, whatever trials God is taking you through, try to remember to count it all joy. Its a purpose in EVERYTHING that happens to you...its a realization of something God needs for you to have in your life to fulfill your purpose. Hope this blog finds you well. Until next time...