Agitated, amongst other things...

Have you ever had a period in your life where you were just real agitated about some things? That's how I have been feeling lately. I don't want to be bothered by people, I don't wanna be around people. I just wanna be by myself but at the same time I want to be around only ONE person cause I know that person WILL make me feel like how I am suppose to. Maybe I am feeling this way because it has been 2 months and some change since I have had sex...you know built up sex. I am dealing with dumb shit at work that unnecessary. Its like the more I try to be friendly and speak to people to show that I am not a bad fucking person the more hatred comes my way. I feel like going to work and talking to no one...then once I do that I have a problem, right? Bills are getting on my nerves...it seems like I can't even make a dent in my student loans...I am beginning to crush my car payments though off top. I gave them more then they were asking as well as the student loans, but the student loans are on some bullshit...but I digress from that issue. Sprint hit me with the okie doke and I have until the 19th of September to come up with with money for a new phone, new plan, and a new wireless provider. The dilemma I am having is the phone I want is $300 and some change but the plan is cheap and affordable for one wireless provider, the other provider has a cheap phone I like for like $200 and some change but their plan is higher and some what affordable...WAS trying to get my phone bought by someone else but that isn't going to happen...I really don't feel like getting into that one...ANYWAYZ and on top of it all my mother and her medical situation that I am dealing with...its like everything is hitting me at once and I am backed into a corner...no hands stretching out, no advice from others, no nothing. ONCE AGAIN I am by myself...its like I always said I am ALWAYS there but when its my turn can't find shit! SMH!!

I actually take that back...I have had people ask bout my mom and how she was doing and everything but the ONLY person that I can recall was my boo. He was constantly asking me how I was doing and everything and he was OUT OF THE COUNTRY...smh yeah I know sad but very true. I really miss him right now...that has got to be my problem...I don't know I am just confused on alot and I feel like I don't have time...hopefully something with break through in a matter of time...

What A Day!!!

You know today was pretty crazy! First of I wouldn't have thought I would be blogging about this but hey, this is a venting session for me. Like I said today was a crazy ass day! It has all started from yesterday when I received a funky ass letter from Sprint telling me they ARE going to terminate my account. Why you ask? Sprint DECIDED to call me one day and say , "hey we keep seeing that you are going over BECAUSE you are roaming so why don't we suggest the UNLIMITED plan." Ok, that's fine but NOW they are hitting me with you keep going over the roaming minutes on your unlimited plan....WTF? Yeah, I know some BULLSHIT! So, today I was bill paying and wireless provider shopping when I went to go pay insurance and the amount was higher due the the fact they decided to add late fees ALL OF A SUDDEN, that pissed me off. Then I was on my way home and got into a FUCKING accident cause I wasn't paying attention with all the bullshit on my mind. Smh...yeah so I called my insurance about the accident, got chewed out by my sweety (yeah he was hot with me), and then I went to sleep...

So, now I am sitting here thinking of what to do with the rest of my evening. I am contemplating on going to a party my job is throwing. I need to wash my hair too...FUCK IT, I need to relax my mind...I think Imma go ahead and go to the joint and just let the stress loose...well, thanks for listening ya'll or should I say reading lol...until next time...

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